This hasn’t been the greastest of weeks for me. My dad has been fighting cancer for almost two years now. Just recently he sat me and my siblings down and told us pretty much that he’s dying. I make it sound so easy through these words but its been really hard on me. This whole time during his fights I feel like I should’ve been there more, and now that I find out how critical his health is getting I’m more involved now spending time. But even then I feel like I’m doing this all too late. I have no clue how long his timetable is, he’s still fighting and we are all pulling for a miracle but at the moment I’m in a world of mental and emotional pain. I feel for my father for I can’t imagine the toll this cancer is taking on him, and I feel like I could’ve been there more. Why him? That’s my question to, the universe , why him….
So it’s been about a solid week of dieting and deciding to put my health as my top priority. I am fat as shit and I know I can lose all the weight given two years ago that I shredded about 65 pounds. So with my new focus of being healthy ( and staying healthy) I will log what I eat/drink everyday just for a reflection tool.
Breakfast 830am: Veggie Scramble with Egg whites.
Snack 1pm: A bowl & a half of Kashi Cereal w/ bananas and Almond Milk
Lunch 230pm: A Turkey Burger on wheat bread with lettuce,pickles, no cheese, Honey/Regular Mustard and A-1 Sauce.
Snack 530pm: One Cliff Bar
Snack 7pm: String Cheese and Apple Sauce
Snack 8pm: Fat Free Popcorn
Around 930pm( for my lunch break): WILL be eating final meal of the day, Lean Cuisine ( Chicken Chow Mein)
In hindsight, I don’t normally snack this much but I felt hungrier than usual today. Still the worst thing I probably had today is that string cheese, oh and the iced coffee I forgot to mention at school. I also didn’t mention that so far I have drunken about 92 ounces of water. No exercise today. Gave myself the day off from the gym.
